to do or not to do...

o welllz... another highly anticipated post... NOT!!!... hahhax... i feel so contradictory today... -_-'.... ankle pain.. so dun wan go soccer... but ended up going to gym...... muz train up my arms liao... at least try.... sianz .... so i smsed danver to ask him if he wanna go... woke up late... lol.. and waited for 33 like half an hour!!!.. in e hot sun.!!!... =( ... lucky i nvr sweat much.... zzz.... and wenqing became my morning sms buddy!...hahax... i think 3 msgs?.. -_-'.. lol.. better then nothing.... no one was awake.. though i know one that would be at that time..but confirm she wun reply.. sooooooo... =X.....

found out danver also just woke up.. hahhax.. and he got stomachache....... we chionged the pull-up machine... and other stuff that used hands =) ... lol .... and i cycled!... lol .. the medium warmup not bad... i lost 21 calories... -_-'... according to e machine.. did for one hour of all these funnie exercises... and then went to watch sd5 play frisbee.. not bad.. i can throw but cannot catch... lol ... =X....

and after gym... decided to bring danver to acsi to eat.. but found out that now become 5-day week.. so cca is shifted to fridays...( most ) ... so they din haf food... sianz.. and it was PTM somemore..and for the less intellectual... it stands for parent-teacher meeting... =) .. so much food .. as danver said.. it was a international buffet.. but onli teachers allowed to eat.. and parents.. so u see 2 yellow ac shirt pple running about.. hahahax... trying to look for food.. XD.... met miss kuo siew lei.. ( er pardon me for e spelling.. i think it's wrong... LOL.. ) ... the pro chem teacher la.. and she could rmb me!!!>. =) .. said there weren;t many handsome boys in ac hahax... -_-'... then also met judy ho... my history teacher!... she asked me if i had a gf yet.. =X... i preferred not to answer e qn... lol.

then we met edwina!!... and ....***..... nvm.. u go find out yourself.. =) ... lol ... and i tot e cafe was open.. so i ran first to go check.. the uncle just closed... -_-'.. aiyo uncle!!!.. lol ... lucky i know most of e pple in ac like personally... coz most of us ac pple haf good pple to pple relations.. =p ... hahhax... then tot ITE foodcourt was open... then edwina and the rest of them and *** went to dover market... lol .. okie i think i wun use asterisks for her name anymore.. -_-'... i use secret code... hahhaax... then i jacked danver the 2nd time... and ITE foodcourt was closed also... lol ... and danver so sooooo hungry he was gonna faint.. but i felt kinda high... wonder why.. i felt kinda sad when she din say bye to me.. but onli wina did... sighz... though wina say bye i also felt happy.. but diff kind of happy la... bleah....

then went dover market also... but ate at some hawker centre.. coz danver wanted to eat some fried fish thingy... -_-'...lol.. then i ended up thinking wad to buy.. 3 reasons why.....
1st... i din wanna go into dover market.. coz the whole lot of them was sittting inside.. bleah.. so means i cannot order food from there...
2nd..i cannot pack food from e market to bring into e hawker centre coz they say no outside food.. bleah.. but it was due to e first reason that i din go inside.. sighz.. no guts to face her.... sianz...
3rd...they DIN haf mini pot noodle!! hahax... my fav noodles.. =)...
ended up ordering roti john.. which was 10 times better then ac's one, in terms of taste and looks... danver and wina can testify to this.. =p ... looked kinda small but was filling... YUM!..

i called edwina over when i saw her alone washing her hands.... and she came over to talk to me for a while... o wellz... glad i haf her as my gd fren.. =) ... o and she made me stare at my food for like 5 mins.. coz i had to hold her drink for her while she went to e washroom.. hahahhax.. =X,.... muz make her feel bad.... lol .... k la... =p... and i dunno if she actually did wad i told her to do..... hahax.. hope she did it in a tactful way... sianz... and i din say bye.. coz *** din look in my direction... .. i was like gonna fall off my seat watching her walk away.. danver knows this.. hahax.. he was like watching free comedy.. -_-'...

maybe it's me.. maybe it's her... wad's WRONG??.. sianz.... edwina says that she's just shy... but i think it's just she doesn;t want to talk... and when pple feel like that i can't do anything.. i only talk when pple are able to respond.... and when both of us meet it's a bad combination..... one dun wanna talk coz he thinks that she isn;t gonna respond.. and why?.. coz she gives the look of those that wun respond or respond with daft reponses...... looks like cannot ask her for NJ concert... haf CIP with danver on that day too... sianz.... and i dunno if i should ask her out since i know her june timetable is packed.... i really am at a loss of wad to do...
looking towards tomorrow has nvr been worse off.......

thnx to those who stayed and read till the end of this post... i really appreciate it... it may not be entertaining.. but it just reflects how i feel... =)...

hmmmz..

okie.. damn long nvr blog liao.... dunno why also.... hmmmz... i think it's becoz i got banned for playing com for 2 days... hahax.. coz played too much dota.. like 5 hours 2 days ago.. -_-'... lol.. so sianz....

reverting back to old school games like pokemon yellow..hahax.. but cannot play.. coz cannot save.. my stupid gameboy color is spoilt.. -_-'..zzzz.. o wellz.. at least it was quite fun beating brock again... lol.... i owned him with a nidoran =) ... double kick!... hahhaax.,..

sch is dumb... doing e same things over and over... -_-'.. so monotonous...but at least now i can control my sleepiness.. =) ... lol ...

played lan with ryan wong.. edwin.. and mathan... on tues.. LOL>. damn funnie l;a.. we played cs until can cry.. all e funnie stuff... XD... i knifed mathan to death.. lol .. and we p[layed some gay map that jump a bit wrong can die liao.. -_-'...

and i haf a new thing to irritate danver with!!!.. hahhax.. T.T DURAI!!!!.. hahahhahax.. =X.... lol... i sooo feel like calling her that again.. confirm she wun know i'm calling her that.. =) ... and watch as danver goes nuts... -_-'..

OMG.. i feel like slapping myself.. for i'm such a *&%^(&%(^(&%( ... zzzzz... i can;'t believe i had like 30 mins all alone with HER and i said NOTHING!!!!..... -_-'... lol ... my heart was beating damn fast though... hahax... sianz la.... and she avoided sitting nxt to me by waiting for others to pass first then sitting down.. sianz./.. when i wanted to talk to her... zzzz... lol... omfg... wtf...( WAH! THAT's FIERCE!!)
.... er... nvm... i'm going blur... i really like her.. and i dun think i'm gonna give up so easily.... but.... -_-'... bleah...

-_-'..zzz

okiexz.... lol... shang called me a pantat... -_-'... stupid shang... nvr ask me play dota liao.... learn my secret then dun play with me.. =( ... hahax..

today's a day off from sch!... =) ... coz of some funnie polling thingie.. dun ask me .. i also dunno and dun care... as long got holiday can liao.... hmmmz.... quite sianz at home ... kinda.. tried to do C.R.V tutorial.. but it looks so foreign to me... -_-'... onli managed to do one full qn and 2 half qns...hahax... the rest looks scary.. =X....

actually no mood to blog one.. but my stupid ares is rehashing all my files..... so it;s like gonna take half an hour.. which i haf to spend it... coz u cannot do anything to ares while it's rehashing...zzzz.. dunno why so jialat... i veri sianz.... wonder wad websites to visit... bleah....

hmmmz.. edwin's watching MI:3 with some girl at TBP!!!!.. hahahx.. too bad i too lazy to go check out which girl izzit... apparently she doesn;t know her way around here.. soooo i think muz be those bukit timah rich rich type one la.... lol.. edwin... going for MG girl sia.. =X..... or SC girl..

i love magnum almond!... i got 6 bars... but now left 5... =P.... cut my hair today.. feel so lost without my thick crown of hair... zzzzzzz.. well at least it's cooler around here...... some kind of consolation..... -_-'....wonder how my class will react tml,.. confirm edwina will go touch my hair one.. lol ... -_-'... doh......... especially........ =X....

hmmmz... now that i got quite some time on my hands... i can't help thinking about her...thinking bout wad happened.... thinking bout how things became like this.. thinking about the future... wad am i gonna do...... i think i think too much,... -_-'... but if i dun think then my mind is useless..... and zzzz it;s raining now.............. sunny yet rainy........ a exact replica of my current situation?.. maybe.... not sure... dunno... dun wanna know..... -_-'....

still haf like 20 mins more to go b4 my stupid ares can work...zzzz.... okie.. enough entertainment for u shang?.. -_-'... diq.... nothing to really blog about lor..... WTH!!.. rain is coming into my hse!!!.. -_-'... my com's nxt to e window!!.. 'zzzzzzzz..... lol.. tt was random... bleah.... u better tag u stupid shang.... lol... =X.. play with me dota!...

gundam!

hmmmz... lol.. i can't rmb wad happened these few days.. memory lapse.. and i dunno wad to type either.. =X.... sianz.... but at least i still haf my *troop* of loyal blog followers... =) ... hahhax...

THURSDAY-
i think nothing much happened today... i think the onli thing i can say is that SILENCE IS BROKEN!!... lol ... coz during pe today e girls were doing 2.4 km run... and the rest of us took the timing down for them... and i just went forward and told ******** that her timing was wad wad wad... and she actually replied with a question/remark sort of answer... cool.. and i replied again!!.. hahax.. it's been so long since i talked to her... and then i met her fren.... and i talked more with her fren then with her!!!.. -_-'... lol.. wad a failure i am.. o well.. =) ...

FRIDAY-
morning soccer match... supposed to wake up early but dunno why overslept..zzzz... and i reached there on time... and supposed to eat breakfast with xs at jurong point(jp)... but i so late he just ate without me... zzz.. then i went subway and bought myself a warm cold cut trio..zzz. lol.... and xs ate one cookie!!.. and narvin ate half of another one!!!!.zzz.. hhax... then we went to ntu field to play match... then i was left back.. -_-'...hmmmz.. so wanted to attack.. o wellz... then defended .. and cleared.. and it repeats... lol ... then richard was shouting as usual.. =) ... hahahax... if he dun shout means something wrong la.. lol... and i did one trick!!.. faked the striker lol.. and managed to get past him =p ... shiok.. we won 2-1... not bad.. comeback sia in 2nd half... =) ...

went marina after tt to eat YUKI & YAKI AGAIN~!!,., zzzzz stupid richard... and he screwed up e soup.. smelt damn sick... and i ate quite a bit too.... and we completed the funnie arcade game again!!.. =) .. and i bought another gundam model... the force impulse... =) ... die la.. no money.........and shang knows how to play drow ranger courtesy of me.. =) ...

SATURDAY0-
TODAY"S XS"S BIRTHDAY!!!!... lol ... went late to soccer again.. zzzz.z.. stupid me... coz yesterday nite too bz building my freedom gundam bought earlier with jasmin.. ryan.. and gupreet... =p .. on tues i think...played soccer.... scored onli 2 today..lol ... and one nice ram hit e post... bleah from half line leh... lol ... looks like i place too much liao.. placed like 4 shots today all hit post... -_-'...zzzz... then we bought a cake for xs and celebrated in e soccer court.. =) .. centre somemore.. hahax.. the small circle... and xs cannot cut a cake for his life.... -_-'.. lol... and soooo many pple owe me money!!!... hahax... o wellz.... but it was a nice cake though..went home.. and josh kept me from alighting at tiong bahru..zzzz... held on to my bag.... zzz... o wellz.. wasted 5 mins.. hahax.. and i had to swear in e mrt somemore.. -_-'... hahahax... quite dumb.. and BO LIAO!!!!..

THOUGHTS.. kinda random now.. dunno why am i typing in letter type format.. got headings somemore.. -_-'... lol... talking to her tt day felt quite nice.... and i wanna do it more... but only she wans.. i dunno how to approach her... bleah... =X... sianz la... why is this coming back to me now....................................................

Seasons...

<<>>
hahax.... wad a crappy sat.. raining when i woke up at 7.30 am.. -_-'.. immediately msged josh.. and he say cancel soccer liao.. so i spread e msg.. lol... then went to play com coz too early to do anything and i was already WIDE awake... lol ... zzz.. then smsed shang to tell him meet wad time at city hall mrt... hmmmz.. and supposed to be at 11.30am meet.. but i played dota until i met him at 12.30!!... hahahx... =p .. sorry la shang... then we walked around looking at gifts for his god-sis... cool... and say some funnie book for girls one.. quite nice... but 47.40!!!!..zz.. damn ex... lol.. and we went over to e humour section.. it;'s like a private thing with shang la.. we always go bookshop and see humour section coz some got really damn good jokes... lol.. can laugh until die.. and we found a book on bunny suicides... =) ... hahahax.. super funnie!!.. 15 bucks!!.. and i wanna buy !! =X... lol ... okiexz.. then we walked to suntec and back when we found out chee had arrived at city hall.. and we koped some dating agency service thing to give to both of them..and bryan actually wanted to call.. -_-'...


okiexz.. then we walked around at suntec again........ and we ate at some new eatery .. called "just noodles"... and it was dirt cheap and had free flow of coffee/peach tea/orange juice... and the food was realtively good.. and if i say relatively good means should be good for most pple.. =) ... lol ... prices starting from 4.80 onwards!!.. and the free flow rocks!.. i drank 4 cups!!.. =p ... and my bulgolgi beef set was nice.. and shang koped my chicken wing!!!!!... =@... lol ... then we went marina to play lan!!!.. and i played damn crap... anyhow play... zzz i actually died?... lol ... my luna sux.. maybe i should go practise.. =) ... and then richard came ..!!!>. lol.... hmmz...then we went to walk around a bit first.. and had some funnie encounters.. with a man kneading dough of the A1 curry puffs damn hiong.. and looked as though he was humping the counter.. i got e video!!.. =p ... i'll show u on my handphone!... lol..then we went to yuki and yaki to eat dinner... zz had to withdraw 30 from my acct... -_-'...


and fang and chee went back home.. -_-'... so onli me and richard and shang ate... lol ..then we did a lot of stupid crap... and ate quite a bit too... lol ... and richard was damn funnie la... kept trying to scare e pple looking through e window that were looking at us eating...




<--------this was wad we were supposed to eat... lol ...




..but we ended up eating... this----->








then when we ate until damn full.... richard decided that we had to dispose of our uneaten food.. and for a while we thought he was brillant.. to discard food into e tom yum soup pot.. but then..... a tiger nvr changes it's stripes sooooooo... LOL.... -_-'..
<----richard's moment of brillance..lol they can see the damn SUSHI inside RICHARD!!... lol!!!....then we paid and went off.. =) ..and we played arcade!!!.. lol.. we completed the some bushibushiking game,.. 30 levels total i think.. and we spent 3 bucks!!.. <------- we completed iT!!!!!. =) and i bought some pirated gundam model.. made in china one.. but it looked so real.. then it costs onli 3.90... coz got 20% discount.. =) .. lol.....
went home and dead beat....

then went back home and died..LOL.. spent my time fixing the model..while watching the elections results... =p ... looked good man... nice color.. din seem like a fake... pieces fitted together nice tooo... bet no one can tell e diff sia... and it cost onli 1/3 of the real one's price... the real one is 11.95.. =) .. mine = 3.90 .. LOL..!!.. =X....

ROCKS!!>..looks real right?.. and can morph into 2 forms.. so nice!!. =) ..gonna buy more sia,... ownage!!!.. =p .. hmmmz.. dun think i gonna blog bout today.... typed too much.. maybe tml.. =p .. and stupid bryan.. i wanna play with u and melvyn dota...zzzz.. <>

dotxz... -_-'..

WA LAO.. i wake up early morning to find out it's raining.. and heavily at that somemore.. -_-'... zzz.. and most unexpectedly.. bryan wanted to play today.. hahhax.. but got cancelled.. so i'm stuck now in e early morning.... cannot sleep... cannot do any stupid thing.. so blog lor.. =p ... wah. sianz until the max sia,.... NOTHING TO DO!!!.. AND TOO EARLY TO STUDY!!... zzzzzz... -_-'.... and heres a song that i used to listen to during my "recovery days"... lol ..

STREETLIGHT MANIFESTO LYRICS


"The Saddest Song"



it doesn't really matter if you lead or follow

everybody's laughing like there's no tomorrow and even if there was,

would you still go following your friends?

i don't know where we went wrong, we're still singing those same sad songs

"it's my life, not your life, i'll end it when i want"



and now i'm off to save the world once again

but i don't know how i'll pull it off this time

i think i'm going to drown

now he's off to save the world once again

but he don't know how he'll pull it off this time

i just know i'm going to drown



and it's the saddest song you'll ever hear

the most pain you will ever feel

but you grit your teeth because it don't get better than this (know this)

and you'll try to explain as the blood leaves all your veins

and you can't think of anything that you would change



stop!

"look and you will see" is what i think she said to me

i'm not too sure because it could have easily been a million things

but i don't know what she said

i still don't know what she said

years passed since i've seen her face, 14 years were just erased

if my life was your life, would you ever take it back?



and now i'm off to save the world once again

but i don't know how i'll pull it off this time

i think i'm going to drown

now he's off to save the world once again

but he don't know how he'll pull it off this time

i just know i'm going to drown



yeah you will try to explain as the blood leaves all your veins

and you can't think of anything that you would change



and now i'm off to save the world once again

but i don't know how i'll pull it off this time

i think i'm going to drown

now he's off to save the world once again

but he don't know how he'll pull it off this time

i just know i'm going to drown



and it's the saddest song you'll ever hear

the most pain you will ever feel

but you grit your teeth because it don't get better than this (know this)

and you'll try to explain as the blood leaves all your veins

and you can't think of anything that you would change

always always u..

lol.. i damn slack to blog nowadays sia... -_-'... hmmmz.. my mood la... cannot blame anything else.. actually can... lol.. =p ... and xs is making my fingers ache.. sms like siao.. hahax.. today quite fun.. i was FREAKING high in e morning... kept disturbing j.c... LOL.. =x... and i finally found out the truth from him!!!!.. yay!!!.. =) ... ownage... lol.. o yar i forgot...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUILING!!!.. though it's kinda late but... NVM la... =) ... lol ...

hmmmz... okiez... danver and me kept suaning each other during bio lec?.. hahahx... damn funnie la.. i acted like ***** and made him feel like dying... =p ... LOL.. damn fun la.. and he suaned... ********... -_-'... stupid diq.. but at least it was fun.. =) ,... and ryan wong ah.. i tried wad mathan always does to me.. go brush against the leg the inside part there... and ryan wong was gonna kill me.. hahahax... =X.. and speaking of mathan.. lol .. nvr come sch... got bad stomachache.. coz go white sands eat nasi pandang the gravy i think the milk spoil or something... -_-'... lol ... diq....

and did napfa today.. and i ate my least today.. not bad i can survive.. =)... eat so little .. lol .. raisin loaf not bad leh.. and deborah asked me if i was alright.. coz she see me eat bread.. lol .. and asked if i was dieting.. -_-'... lol.. maybe i should.. but i tried b4.. no use.. =X... lol .... and napfa damn funnie.. i run shuttle until my soles came out.. zzz.. stupid shoe so long nvr wear,.. 5 years leh...zzz.. then i failed 2.4 by 1 sec.. coz i din push myself... but the teacher many nice.. said the 1 sec was due to reaction time.. and let me PASS!!! hahahax... yay!!!.. =) .. i love that guy man.. lol ..

hmmmz.. long time since i felt a twinge in my heart... been looking at her all day... kinda.. lol .. also not sure when i look at her.. but definitely got look.. -_-'... hmmmz... sometimes got eye contact... but i nvr say anything.. i feel as though i haf nothing to say... really nothing to say.. like mental block... sighz... dunno la.. i also not sure if she's looking at me also... soooooo.. unsure... wanted to ask her out for tml.. some Hwa Chong concert... but i think she;ll be too tired after cca.. confirm reject.. so nvr ask lor.. -_-'... o wellz.... danver looks so happy.. lol .. kinda.. =X... at least he TALKS to her... i dunno wad's happening to me... -_-'.. zzzz
do i still like her?.. that's wad i;ve been asking myself.. and YES i still do... but i dunno wad to do... i'm kinda lost now..................

wa ,,,

OMG OMG OMG........... THE VIDEO FOR THAT SONG IS SOOOO NICE.. =( ... lol ... hahhax... just downloaded it..!!!.. omg omg omg.. hahax... damn nice la.. muz show danver soon... it's soooo like my situation now!!!... -_-'... lol .. i'm kinda siao now.. =p.. hahax.. i think i'm turning high again.. and it's no good for those around me.... * looks around * .. lol .. k la.. wad a random post.. -_-'.. bleah..

you had a bad day..

hmmz.. woke up quite early today... and my team is a team full of diqs.. hahhaax.. =p .. how come?.. coz all 3 of us were in e same train and we din know.. yet we were msging each other like free... -_-'.. until like eunos then we realised that and we met together in e train... LOL... shang was in e front.. i was in e mid.. and xs was at e back.. hahax... all 3 sections of e train.. =) ..we rock la.. joker sia.. and i got 30 yrs of bad luck... coz 10 from shang.. 10 from xs.. and 10 from myself.. =X... hahax.....

went to play joga.. sort of.. and we played against marwin's team??.. wt... zzz... and xs is damn funnie la.. all kinds of funnie things...-_-'.. lol.. so played 3 games.. won one last 2... and won one coz i din know that the match we were gonna kelong.. but at least i still oled... LOL.. and score somemore sia.. damn funnie... =X.. hmmmz.. overall verdict.. fun but HOT... the sun was siao la.... can die.. bleah tml sure burn one... -_-'...

hmmmz... raining... and feeling so sleeeeeppy.. -_-'... lol... but eat dinner liao full of energy... lol.. and shang is finally saved from his accts work.. hahax... =p...

sch again tml.. hmmz.. wonder how it;'s gonna be like,... o yar.. forgot to type.. i bought a new hp pouch!!.. and it;s damn CHIO!!!.. =) ... super nice la.. fits my phone perfectly... fell in love with it at first sight la... * if it could work with living things..* ... lol... =X... 5 bucks onli.. =)

hmmz.. this song is stuck in mine and fang;'s head.. -_-'.. rawkz.. hahax..
DANIEL POWTER LYRICS

"Bad Day"



Where is the moment we needed the most

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

They tell me your blue skies fade to grey

They tell me your passion's gone away

And I don't need no carryin' on



You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee to go

You tell me your life's been way off line

You're falling to pieces everytime

And I don't need no carryin' on



Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

You had a bad day



Well you need a blue sky holiday

The point is they laugh at what you say

And I don't need no carryin' on



You had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day



(Oh.. Holiday..)



Sometimes the system goes on the blink

And the whole thing turns out wrong

You might not make it back and you know

That you could be well oh that strong

And I'm not wrong



So where is the passion when you need it the most

Oh you and I

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost



Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

You've seen what you like

And how does it feel for one more time

You had a bad day

You had a bad day



Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

find a way..

lol... so we'll find a way.... -_-'... hmmmz.. woke up at 8 today!!.. omg... so early...!!..zzz.. had nothing to do..* in this particular order*.. so brushed teeth.. unplugged my zen from charging.. turned on my phone... ate noodles while reading newspaper.. lol.. then packed my bag for tuition and then played pokemaul ruby as i still had one hour to spare.. and it was too early to study.. -_-'.. like duh.. hahax... not bad i pokemaul top kills... =p.. though i'm noob in it..

went to tuition.. and guess who called me>?>?... ryan gomes!!!.. hahahax... he was damn funnie la... asked me tbp where got the ramen shop..lol.. i couldn't visualize him at tbp... -_-'.. and he called me druing tuition!!!... zzz... and i got shocked when some girl sat nxt to me.. last week also sat nxt to me.. hmmmz.. lol.. nah i heck care.. =p ... i think bryan more interested,... =X.... and as usual.. tuition was as slack... and nxt week got relief teacher again.. and guess who i met?... serene!!.. hahax... and her fren also from sd3... cool... =p... hahax... and fang said my shirt looked like from F.O.S one leh.. yay!... finally one shirt he say nice.. but i dun care la,.,. lol.. and foo suaned me with my shirt,.. called me a bad girl.. -_-'.. he die la..

hmmz.. walked around orchard.. and spent 6.50 on wanton noodles!!!.. but is resturant type one and DAMN nice... =) ... worth it sia.. 5 wantons full of prawns and is damn big la... hahax... =p ... and had nice char siew too.. hahax... at e stupid food republic there... I wan new pencil case.. new bag..... hmmz.. dunno wad else liao.. lol ...

aiyo... now jac also knows my blog.. lol .. wanted to keep it secretive.. =X... lol... i too lazy to tag.. sooo... yes huiling.. i know u like ice cream.. i just ate like 3 coconut potong ice creams -_-'.. and i'm coughing .. hahax...

hmmmz... fun fun fun... legs hurt... dunno how to play soccer tml.. -_-'.. bleah... should i ask for nxt sat?... dunno la... i feel kinda sianz.... and i think i haf better choices... hahahax... stupid bryan.. psycho me until liddat... o wellz.. We'll Find A Way.. =) ..

Still Listening To ... *Find The Way* by Mika Nakashima...

funbox!!..

hahax... hmmz.. nvr blog for quite long,... kinda lazy to blog already... and it;s either too much happening to blog down or too little that happened so i dun bother,. but finally there's something to 'type down........ -_-'... lol

k.. on fri... which means yesterday.... we had half e day of partying.. coz we were having a farewell party for charlie chan... he was so touched by our gestures... and some bitch decided that my stuff was rubbish and decided to avoid it... my vanilla cream puffs were a hit lor.. not as good as lynette's lasagna... but good enough for a dessert....(p.s they din get forced to eat it unlike some other thing...) at least i made my contribution.. not like some pple who just tag along with others to get something done and claim all e credit for it... stupid bitch... kkz.. enough of scolding... then edwina's beehoon also many nice.. =) ... but she made too much.. =X.... hahax... and xm and his fishballs and popiah.. =) .. and i forgot who made e taiwan sausages though.. but still nice.. =) ... and the card!!.. hahax.. i think i wrote too little.. -_-'... and jasmin damn funnie la... draw a new organic compound called charmon.. lol.. sounds like a pokemon.. =X.... hahax.... looks quite cute la... and xs kept msging me,......... lol ... so i was msging throughout,... -_-'... stupid xs...

no mood to study for e rest of e day.. so just talked cock with mathan.. -_-'.. and danver too..!!!.. lol... then got weiqiang join us and we waited for e movie screening to start.... in e viewing gallery coz it was raining like siao... and the basketball court damn wet... o yar.. forgot.. had pe there too.. basketball.. -_-'.. i tell u.. i play it so comical i was laughing at myself... lol.. i even lost to alodie in scoring... hahhax.. o wellz... wad can u expect from one tt doesn;t use hands much... =p ...

the movie was dreamship surprise.. and it was DAMN funnie.. can die la.. but it's those type of movies that u watch one time then funnie.. watch again no kick liao.. hahax.. but it was still good... not bad la.. then me and mathan laugh like siao.. coz we always knew wad they were implying.. the hidden meanings la... damn funnie sia.. and i too lazy to type out e details.. =p ..

got my new phone!!!.. =) .. need i say more?.. hahax

hmmz.. nvr felt so emo in a while... dunno why la.. sianz... i think i should just give up.. no point... pushing.... stupid.. hate it.. -_-'... and the stupid ending theme 3 of gundam seed is gonna make me cry anytime soon.. so nice.. =( ...

*Find The Way* by Mika Nakashima..

-_-'...

okiexz... blogger is damn screwed up.. i mite go change blog liao.. go use livejournal.. lol .. =X.// taking ages to load.... and after i typed yesterday the stupid thing hanged on me... so yesterdays post din appear..... hmmz.. but it was basically like.. charlie's leaving!... -_-'... and it's damn sad..... zzzz... and i;m not gonna type how i felt yesterday again.. waste time..and my energy... bleah.... but all i can say.. is... that.. i'm so gonna miss him la.... his energetic teachings... and his extremely fast pace of teaching chem.. hahax.. =( .... i think that these deep feelings haf like developed over the last year... and even more this year.... sighz.... all we can do is just wish his wife recovers.... and that he will be back to e old charlie again... * there's something bout tears which i wun write again.. kinda heart breaking.. *

okiexz.. for today.... came to sch cold.. -_-'... and huiling needed help with NMR.. i nearly died.. ahhax.... cannot count in e morning.. at least my theories still was correct.. then thinking bout chem reminded me of charlie.... sighz.. and he din come today.... =( ... really miss him... our big teddy bear..... =X.... a smart one though... hhax... slept in lib.. with mathan... lol.. =p ... sounds kinda wrong but wadever... -_-'... and we woke up just on e dot.. 12.30... hahahx... =p ... reading biochem booklet really does make u sleepy... lol ...

i want my new phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... -_-'... lol .. i'm making such a fuss over it.......yay.. gundam seed again later!.. though i think i watched today's episode b4 liao.. but anyway.. still nice .. =)...

i think no other teacher can take e place of charlie chan in my heart... why?.. he's the onli teacher who's had a significant impact on me... a certain dislike became a like... at first i really din agree with his methods... and i felt i would fail chem.. but now my chem is picking up... and i think i haf more confidence in this sub now..... thnx to him...and to see him haf tears well up in his eyes... and seeing my classmates cry... is disheartening.... but becoz of his faith in us... i WILL do my best... and hope i get an A and show it to him.... then maybe.. maybe.. i mite cry with him.. when i get back my A's.....

I'll miss u sir...

hahahax.... back to sch once again!!... -_-'.. how come i so happy... maybe it's becoz i'm back to being me!!... and though it comes with e added perks of being reckless... free... and comical.... it has the drawbacks of being a bit introvert... zzz... o well... i'm quite liddat already so i dun think it matters much.... hmmmz... b4 lunch my stomach hurt.. coz hungry... then charlie chan dropped a bombshell on us.. though not exactly a bombshell... but it was still hard to bear....... it seems like he got domestic problems... and he's got a lot of probs on his hands... and yet he's still worried bout us... i'm really touched by his gestures...... it seems like he will be gone for a long time... and another teacher is g0nna take over him.. but i wan charlie...!!!.. =X... sighz... lynette and jasmin cried nxt to me when charlie announced that./... and though charlie wasn't crying..i could see tears welled up in his eyes.... bleah... i felt sad... but i dunno why i din cry.. as lynette said.. guys dun easily show their emotions... well.. quite true... but... guys will show emotions to other guys.... -_-'... sighz.. let's wish charlie's wife a speedy recovery....

gundam seed!...

hahahax.... back to sch once again!!... -_-'.. how come i so happy... maybe it's becoz i'm back to being me!!... and though it comes with e added perks of being reckless... free... and comical.... it has the drawbacks of being a bit introvert... zzz... o well... i'm quite liddat already so i dun think it matters much....

hmmmz... b4 lunch my stomach hurt.. coz hungry... then charlie chan dropped a bombshell on us.. though not exactly a bombshell... but it was still hard to bear....... it seems like he got domestic problems... and he's got a lot of probs on his hands... and yet he's still worried bout us... i'm really touched by his gestures...... it seems like he will be gone for a long time... and another teacher is g0nna take over him.. but i wan charlie...!!!.. =X... sighz... lynette and jasmin cried nxt to me when charlie announced that./... and though charlie wasn't crying..i could see tears welled up in his eyes.... bleah... i felt sad... but i dunno why i din cry.. as lynette said.. guys dun easily show their emotions... well.. quite true... but... guys will show emotions to other guys.... -_-'... sighz.. let's wish charlie's wife a speedy recovery....

hit the lights...

okiexz.. i'm addicted to frenster.. stupid bryan..hahax.. cannot play fake bnet..zz.. had to reinstall warcraft TWICE!!!.. wasted so much time.... and my idiotic blogger din work yesterday... =(... well at least it works now.. -_-'....

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

well i think it does describe me a bit.. or a lot.. -_-'.. hahax... depends on my mood,.... o well.. i dunno how to cross out on blogger so i dun cross out.. hahax... those in bold are my characteristics,, =) sort of.. if not bolded does not mean i dun haf ah.... kinda not my traits that i show to pple... bleah...

OMFG.. i almost got my new handphone today!!!!!... but wad happened ???... i found out my phone is worth 60 dollars!!!!!!!!.... down by 10 dollars from last month!!!!!. ZZZZZZZZZZZZ.... and mine is worth 40... coz i got one piece missing.... -_-'... omg... tt's y my parents dun let me buy.. coz they say so low mite as well dun trade in.. BUT I ALMOST GOT MY SAMSUNG D820C!!!!!... SO CLOSE!!!... hahax.... =p ... nvm.. go bug them this week then....

hmmz... played soccer... onli scored 2 .. pathetic.. couldn't dribble today.. and my def was crap also... tried to def.. but always cannot...zzzz... then ate at macs... where Xs koped the macdonalds advertisement for the double fish o fillet burger... hahhaax...!!!.. -_-'.. damn funnie la.. i wanted to bring back home... =( .... but scared they call police....... lol ...

wad navin said today makes a lot of sense and more reason then wad others haf been saying.... bout the vjc guy that committed suicide?.. i mean i argued that his gf already din mind.... but he still go kill himself.... but navin said.... "Why the hell he go kill himself and write a note to his gf ?? i mean write a damn note to your parents la.. wad did your gf ever do for you?... "... and i felt that this was damn true... his parents nurtured him to be so intelligent... and he had a bright future in front of him.... and yet he din really care bout how they felt but only how his gf or others mite think of him becoz of his apparently small private parts.... his parents must be heartbroken... and to his gf he will probably be just another passing gleam... i realy empathize with his parents.... hope no one else will suicide becoz of such stupid things anymore.. i hate it when pple throw life away... bleah...

twinkleberries..

lol... crappy day.. studied chem test... and died... failed my maths,.. can calculate wrongly.. went all edgy when left onli 5 mins more for e last page... charlie's so gonna kill me.. =X.... then ate breakfast cereal in class.. wah. pro sia.. pour into milk carton... =p.... not bad.. but too much milk.... hahax... and stupid leadership talk.. though i thought if she was there also listening she mite open up more to me.. -_-'... lol .. nvm .. gonna play dota with fang and melvyn first b4 blogging more.. hahax.. BRB!!!.. =) ..

catch your wave,,,

hmmmxzzz.. today ain't a bad day after all.. !!.. =) .. started off sleepy.. and found out i cannot do probability tutorial.. ahhax.. took e whole to just do one part of a question.. ONE PART... not even one ques... wah lao.. hahax.. -_-'... then morning still okie... gave wina her cereal.. =p .. hahax... then i haf 4 packs coz she onli wants 2 .. lol ... -_-'... zzz.. got milo cereal!... hahax... but no milk...... and i'm a bit lactose intolerant... zzzzzz...... scared to drink milk sia.... then me and mathan and danver went crazy in chem lecture.. or was it bio lecture?.. i think both la.. hahhax... we cracked a damn lame joke about a spoof of the power rangers show... mighty morphine power rangers.. -_-'.. IT"S MORPHINE TIME~!!!.. hahax... lol.. we almost died from thinking a story for it.... =p... then also got captain bhangra and captain porno.. and also teletubbies on crack!!!!... hahax.... damn lame la... and plus the day b4 the gay sergeant... -_-'.... and i think i'm slowly regaining myself.. so happy.. =) ... and to spread the joy around.. is wad i think i was meant to be in the first place.. but many events haf clouded who i really am.. time to get back in business... =p...

*The Click Five- Catch Your Wave* ..

hmmmz... looks like all sagis haf problems of their own... and it sux being alone to overcome it.... well time to help someone overcome hers.... together sure can one.. =) ... though i think i muz shower more love on her first....hahahax.... lol... rain rain rain... dying from a runny nose again..zzz.. sianz..... maybe i go sing this song to her tml la... -_-'..

sianz...

HAPPY EASTER!!!!.. -_-'... though i dun really feel that happy inside.... maybe i woke up too early in e morn,... realized it was 8.06 instead of 9.06 which my stupid bedside clock displayed.... omg la... one hour diff.. no idea how it happened..... zzzzzzz.... sianz still got tuition later.... and it's still complex numbers..... -_-'... and fang's gonna be late... as usual...... when i haf a thousand and one things to tell him.......... =X ..... when it can basically be summarised into this........


HIT THE LIGHTS LYRICS

"All Or Nothing"

i'm sorry for every apology

but you'll never know how much you mean to me

until you put me in the ground

until my body is found

until the day i'm buried



you'll find me at the end of my rope

hanging on your every word

i'm finally getting the hang

of getting hung up on girls like you



don't let me let you go

don't leave me here all alone

because every night i spend without you

is like a knife held to my throat



your eyes are the only stars i want to see

your lips is the only air i want to breath

so please tell me that i'm not asking for too much

because there's so much of myself that i've given up



i knew your smile would mean the death of me

but i couldn't care less, no i couldn't care less

so sweet heart kills me constantly

she takes my last breath, you took my last breath

and i'll choke on my last words

all or nothing....

okiexz.... nvr blogged for one whole day.. wow... -_-'... hmmz.. nothing much to type..... played soccer in morning... then badminton.. then a VERI short while of soccer... again.... bleah... then it rained... zzzz... lucky though... if not i think i would break my ankle....

so much going through me right now...... dunno wad to believe in or think about... why does it always happen to me????... -_-'.... not thinking of her already... but it seems i'm just keeping it in.. and just hiding it there... sort of like a landmine... hidden.. and then when u tread on it..... BOOM!!!... -_-'... speaking of boom.... i think i'm already the confirmed keeper killer... in front of goal i also blast... i mean.. i'm the blasting type wad... u wan to blast or not , it's your decision.. not mine.... and i dun blast all e time... * maybe more occasional today then usual... * ... but.. i dun aim keeper lor.. i aim e net... u think i out to kill pple meh?.. i onli wanna score... and i found out that if i play seriously... i look as though i'm out to kill... -_-'.. o wellz... but whenever i play seriously... i noticed games always end much much faster......................................... -_-'.. bleah... dunno how am i gonna play soccer and improve.... if not i'm just gonna stand there and be keeper and let all e balls fly past me.... okiexz.. back to my main theme for today.... ball+me+mood swing+after letting in 4 plus goals in 2 mins= BOOM.. -_-'...

punchline..

o wellz.... today went to sch... nvr see my classmates for one day like quite weird..and edwina was early for once!!...hahax... and i disturbed huiling and j.c .. XD.. karmen was involved also.. -_-'.. they so good.. at least not lonely.. look at me.. sighz... =X.... then had the most crappy p.e ever... 2 sets of 5 pull-ups.. 43 sit-ups... and 6 rounds.. -_-'... i just recovered eh.. almost died.... felt like dying when i was queueing up to buy drinks... and i missed my jacket today.. din bring... and ryan wong got a full blast of the gay me...hahhax... damn funnie la.. watching him threaten to whack me.. or actually to reveal........................................ -_-'.. and now more pple know.. wth... zzz... stupid... now i'm so dead,..

okiexz.. i should slap myself today... din do anything... except to ask.. "are u going for lunch now? ".. and after i finished eating then she came down... -_-'... then i din know wad to do.. and realized that she has no cca today.... okiexz...... and i got badminton...zzzz.. crap... if not ....... bleah.. dun think i would haf asked also... wad's wrong with me... i dunno.... i dunno.... -_-'... wad's happening to me????.... wad am i doing?... i really like her a lot... i think this is the most serious one i haf so far...... and yet i'm doing nothing...... crap... think i'm gonna make this fail.... sighz... think i'm gonna fall sick again... hugging my jacket at home... means something;s wrong with my body temp... =( ...