crush!

*hums* "I've got birds in my ears and the devil on my shoulder ".. =)
lol... suddenly i get kicked back one step when it took me eternity to take that step.. -_-'..danver i need to discuss with u!!!... =( .. hahax..

current song = *Crush* by *Cute Is What We Aim For*...

MUSE

hmmmz... this whole week stoning sia.. -_-'.. bleah.. okiexz went to band concert yesterday.. met josh at raffles mrt.... and as usual.. i play tower defense until like 6.40.. -_-'.. lol.. suppossed to meet him at 7..... so i was late... =X... hahahx.. by like 2 mins plus i think.. not sure.. nvr checked... =) ... then walked there... and stupid danver sat at one corner .. STUDYING!!!!!....... ( ooo just nice he's online.... hahax.. ) hmmmz..and we went in.. and i many blur.. suppossed to tell e pple edwina's name.. but i went to say my own name... -___-' LOL... no wonder they took so long to search... hhahahx... oops... =X.. then went in and sat down.. turned out i sat near a bunch of st.magaret girls.. all know edwina!.. hahhax... -_-'.. then during interval they called us "the edwina's frens... "... lol .. and edwina got a bunch of cookies from her fren.. which she said was brownies.. i dunno who correct la.. but the packaging wrote COOKIES.. so i guess i should haf a larger probability of being correct.. =) ... and out of no where... the usual solemnness of performing in concerts became casual during e jazz ensemble... where jian wei and wen long came out with electric guitar and drum set.. -_-'... lol .. improvisation... lol ... and it was nice.. ,... and thow xin yuan and his "gang".. rocked the house with their trombones... =) ... u rock thow!!!... then seeing edwina with her hands full.. i waved bye and went off to GLUTTON"S SQUARE!!!.. hahax.. =p ... ate satay.. ownage sia.. their 2nd dip.. the black soya chilli dip was hot and NICE>>>... =X... and danver bought oyster omelette... lol ... i koped some.. =p... then we talked some crap b4 danver's dad gave me a lift home again.. =) .. hahax.. so nice... like duh i paid 10 bucks for that ride!!!... hahax.. just joking danver!!!.. =X...

( o yar... edwina was e most favoured player .. why?,.. coz she got really paid for her efforts... 30 from me and 33 from her fren.. while others got onli flowers and chocs... =p... ) .. lol.. sorry wina!... will get u flowers.... nxt time... when i got money... hahax... thnx for e tix and performance.. and zel's solo was nice too.. =) ...

*many things to think through today... -_-'... lol .. work... frens... relationships... games... music... -_-'.. lol ... head pain.. =( ... -_-'.. lol .. *

songs!

hahax.. recovered from fever!... but still got recurrent headaches.. i really need to get out of here to get some fresh air sia... lol .. tml is gonna be e 3rd time i'm going to clarke quay in a week.. -_-'... going for BAND concert!.. =) .. yay.. wonder wad nice music they're gonna play again,... lol... downloading songs now.. coz damn bored.. found a damn nice band.. called RISE AGAINST... lol .. =X... more songs to upload to my zen!.. lol.. random sia.. o wellz.. nothing better to do.. and though i said not to play dota again for today.... i'll guess i'll play it again.. =P...

sick...

bleah.. muz be e rain these few days.. getting wet now really makes me feeellll sick... =( ... cold... no mood to eat... zzz... wearing my jacket... =) .. lol .... but then i haf to blog... dunno why.. but just this feeling....
hmmz.. din know why i missed this in my previous blog post...

A THANK YOU NOTE.. lol..
1.thanks to miss yim for our lodgings.
2.thnx to edwina and EZ bbq for our barbecue.
3.thnx to ryan wong for being e onli other guy to stay over.. =) .
4.thnx to jac and edwina and kahyoke and tiffany for dragging our stuff into their room.... -_-'..
5.thnx to kahyoke for teaching me mahjong .. lol ..
6.thnx to jac for spreading (a lot of ) hazelnut spread on my bread.. -_-'..
7.thnx to jasmin for bringing dvds.. ( though we had no player -_-'.. )
8.thnx to edwina for bringing shampoo!..
9.thnx to e 2AA1 pple who came..
10.thnx to kahyoke for taking a video of me.. lol ..
11.thnx to e flies that lost all their wings and made the hse damn icky..
12.thnx to DX and frens who came.. lol sorry forgot wad class.. i many blur.. =X
13.thnx to e lady at e coffee shop who paid 10 cents of our meal... =)
14.thnx to e changi "night life"pple for making an appearance when we were there.. hahax.. for some reason "mathan"pops out in my head.. =p
15.THNX TO CHERYL FOR HER SPEAKERS!!! lol... if not i confirm sleep more liao.....
16.thnx to all who came... =) .. and made it enjoyable... and...
17.THNX TO E GAS GUY WHO CAME AND SHOWED us that actually we din run out of gas.. but we dunno how to change e gas cylinder... -_-'


zzz i really dun feel well. dammit.. maybe dota will cure it.. X_X... lol ...

long post..

hmmm... wah a lot of stuff to type.. die.. so i'll think i'll just summarise.. practise gp at e same time lol!!.. -_-'...

start of this week.. lol incidentally i'm blogging at e end of e week.. =) .. i surprise myself sometimes... =X... hahax..

CLASS CHALET: ALOHA CHANGI FAIRY POINT CHALET 4 =)
k diverting liao.. -_-'.. on tues.. went to class chalet!.. disaster.. was raining... and still had to take mahjong set from edwina coz she got band.... band... okie.. that was random... =l .. so all those who enjoyed mahjong thank me!!.. and edwina too lol.. btw e mahjong set still with me.. can play!.. =p ... anyone wanna come my hse?.. we bet money.. i damn broke... lol .. then we took taxi.. 21 dollars!..zz.so ex..then we BROKE into e chalet!... hahax.. coz e door was locked and miss yim not there yet.. so we ( tiffany ) entered through e window.. which i discovered was unlocked... =p.. AA1 came!.. but i almost knew no one.. lol .. onli adrian.. sort of la.. and some girl called weilin knew me?... -_-'.. okie..... veri unexpected.. lol .. and we played animal game.. but i kept screwing up.. became comedy.. and i did forfeit!!.. danced para para.. ( sort of la.. ) .. coz jac told them i could dance e arcade one.. -_-'... lol... and i danced.. and kahyoke took a VIDEO!!!!.. in her handphone.. not bad.. i think can post on youtube.. =) ... lol ..!!... die la... and it was quite eerie upstairs though.. until some girls din wanna bathe alone.. but i din join them ah.. lol .. -_-'.. onli kept talking to edwina while she bathed.. lol .. until throat pain.. coz air-con damn COLD.... =X ... and the girls also scared to sleep alone.. lol.. so they dragged mine and ryan's matresses to their room.. and we all ended up sleeping together.. on diff matresses that is... hahhaax... =P...

wednesday morning...
woke up and found out almost e whole hse was flooded with those big big fly the wings and their wingless bodies..zzzz... omg la... zzz.. like landmines lidat... worse.. hahax.. =p ... but still managed to get some breakfast... cheese rings..!!.. =) ... and apple tea.. and watched news.. while edwina and the others slept.... and then rented our bicycles.. so fun.. i loved it.... bicycles rock!..if i was abit skinnier i think i go join X-games liao... i whole day trying to jump up stairs,... lol.. and cycling with one or no hands.. =) .. and i can sms while riding.. hahhaax.. =) .. my skill improved liao... lol .. o yar././ karmen just reminded of this.. lol.. i walked to e coast and took some pics.. coz morning muscles veri cold.. muz warmup =) .. lol .. and then all e pple came and we barbarcued!!.. lol .. class fund owes me many money.. but tt;'s another story soooo.. lol.. dun waste time typing it.. =) .. barbarcued until die.. o wellz.. nxt time dun ask me start fire or make it bigger.. i onli can cook... sooo.. if i cannot do e fire dun come say i lousy.... go do it yourself.. bleah.. =X.. and i'm addicted to chery's (2AA1) speakers.. so shiok.. love it... whole day playing music.. hahhaax... thank you!.. but u wun know my blog soooo.. =p ... lol ... then edwina went home.. coz of... -_-',.. o wellz. wina... some pple liddat one u cannot expect anything la... just be nice to them.. =) .. lol .. like me!... hahax... and zel din come..so got dvds but no player.. -_-'
then i washed up all e stuff.. actually washing up quite fun... coz i relaly felt damn irritable.. dunno why.. so mite as well go spend e energy on something.. =) .. turn out i can clear up quite well... maybe coz i too lazy at home.. lol... that's why nvr hone my skills...but at least it was quite spick and span... then went cycling with ryan and jasmin... we got jacked by 10cents!!.. hahax... tell u e story if u ask me in sch.. too lazy to type.. and we saw a lot of eeeeeeeewwwwwww... lol.. the night life lol.. that me and mathan wanted to find... sick la.. look from e back look like man la.. zzz... and jasmin "loves" ghost stories... and ryan owes me a thanx after i effortlessly repaired his loose bicycle chain.. without getting my fingers oily!.. =) ..coz i used a leaf.. lol... went back and slept... sianz lor...

thursday.. nothing much.. we booked out.. and breakfast jac spread hazelnut spread on my bread as thick as the slice itself.. hahhax.. sooo sick... =X... lol.. o well.. my breakfast... -_-'.. and we cycled back to return e bikes... and I almost lost my bag... coz jac and jasmin decided to go shopping for triumph wonderbras.... lol... and more....-_-'... and ate at macs... with jasmine and jac.. and ryan.. played hangman on tissue.. then we went home.. sianz.. tired.. sleepy.. lol.. think i slept most this chalet.. o wellz... conditioned by sch already.. =) ..

friday..went out with fang to "STUDY".. but lol.. went to look for stuff to buy at orchard first.. and i'm damn blur... at orchard point bought a pair of flops from OP... =) .. not bad la. i lazy to search from other brands.. and i got budget.. =X... and i walked into e female toliet... coz i had parallax error.. lol ... cannot see e door sign properly.. doing my hair inside .. until some female employee came inside and told me it was female toliet.. omg so embarassed... -_-'..o wellz... then i mistook meridian for orchard emerald and walked further from bryan instead of meeting him... lol... -_-'.. went to look for portable speakers.. look damn chio la... and i saved 5 bucks by going to sim lim to buy.. but blew 4.80 on a pack of batteries that i din need.. coz need triple A.. but i bought double A instead... lol.. u should haf seen my reaction when i was trying to like place the ultra large batteries into my speakers.. -_-'.. comedy... lol.. then went clarke quay macs to study.. not bad,... quite fun.. coz veri quiet.. and my speakers providing music .. =) ... bryan now also wanna buy.. hahahx... too tech liao.. =p ... now i dunno wad i lacking in electronic equipment... -_-'..

sat.. germany won 4-2.. lol .. double of fang's prediction.. =p .. and he totally owned in soccer today la.. that stupid fang.. scored like 10 goals?.. total.. hahax.. the times he nvr came.... all pent up inside.. lol .. first thing come in 2 goals liao.. -_-'.. lol.. and i went back home and dotaed first b4 meeting richard and shang at city hall mrt..at like 8 pm.. then went to eat a bit b4 fang came.. and it was comedy.. clarke quay at first no space.. then richard and fang found a DAMN GOOD SPOT to watch e england match... but pity the match sibei boring...sianz... no style at all... one stupid goal and that's it... and bryan still can't drink.. -_-'.. lol .. and tiger beer still sucks... i wan my draft beer.. =( ... then on e way back met vishbu.. my ex junior class member.. -_-'.. and she got 50 bucks for taxi ride home!.. lives near fang .. hahax..so we all 3 take taxi home... knocked out first thing i went back..lol.. so shag... -_-'..

sunday (today!)
... lol ... raining again.. and i wore damn casual.. lol.. sianz of always wearing jeans.. muz put my flops to good use.. =) ,... and bought onli one gundam model... destiny gundam scale 1/100...coz some irritating pple.. whom i do not know,... bought out all the strike freedom and destiny gundam scale 1/144 high grade model kits...zzz.. so instead of buying 2 onli got one.. well at least i know there are decals for the 1/100 destiny gundam.. =) ... muz make it look chio sia...if i haf e time........ lol ...
nothing much today,... dreaming away again... meridian sailing.. =) .. LOL... random ?.. =) .. u go figure.... hahhaax...

chalet!

hahax.. kkz.. today's chalet day!.. as edwina reminded me YESTERDAY... ... -_-'.. so obviously i am sooooo unprepared.... lol ... dun think i can bring my xbox..zzz.. but i try bring my laptop.. if possible... lol outdoor lan gaming with ONE pc... XD... muz see how ryan wong plays dota A.I sia.. =X .. well will be back on fri.. but feel free to msg me anytime.. i'm sure confirm damn bored there one... hahax.. unless got MORE guys... maybe ryan wong coming today.. muahahaha.. -_-'.. okie tt sounds gay... well a song to describe how i feel now... * a lighted up mood these days *

I Wanna Go To A Place...

by Rie fu from Gundam SEED DESTINY (3rd ED)


I wanna go to a place where I can say,

That I'm all right and I'm staying there with you,

I wanna know if there could be anyway,

That there's no fight, and I'm safe and sound with you,


And everytime I look, I thought you were there,

But it was just my imagination,

I don't see it anymore cause I see thru you now,


imademo kidzukanai deshou kono shizuka na sora ni,

(Even now you still haven't noticed this quiet sky,)

itsudemo omoidasu kedo mou doko nimo modorenai,

(I am always thinking of it, but I can no longer return to there,)


soshite zutto kokoro de samete sotto kidzuite,

(And I will always be awake in my heart, gently taking notice,)

itsuka kitto yasashisa mietekuru you ni,

(That someday I will be able to see kindness,)


What's stopping me? I get stuck again,

Is it really OK? It's never OK for me,

What's got into me? I get lost again,

Is it really OK? It's never going to be,


soshite motto sagashite me no mae ni kidzuite,

(And I will search harder to realize the things in front of my eyes,)

asu wa kitto kazamuki mo kawaru you ni,

(Even the wind's direction will surely change tomorrow,)

kaze ga sotto sasayaku ugomeku nowa kono daichi,

(The wind whispers gently, the one that moves is the earth,)

mayawanaide yasashisa mietekuru you ni,

(Find the way and I will be able to see kindness,)


And every time I look, I thought you were there,

But it was just my imagination,

I don't see it anymore cause I see thru you now,


I wanna go to a place where I can say,

That I'm all right and I'm staying there with you.

tonfila?

firstly... LOVE U WENQING!!.. hahax.. not the type of love... but that kind of love.. -_-'... okie i dunno wad i talking.. i decided to type this for u coz u tagged!!.. hahax.. even when stupid danver din tag,... =) ... o u sianz also?.. msg me!. hahax.. got nothing to do... -_-'...

hmmm... okie... on sat.. by a stroke of fortune.. ( or misfortune ) .. i decided to msg someone... and turned out.. i found out stuff that i had guessed beforehand... well... my reaction to it was quite unforeseen.... VERI unforeseen... ( maybe it's becoz i was playing dota and having like 20 plus kills with my veno.. =X... ) .. okiexz.. but besides that... i din really feel sad... maybe becoz my heart was quite dead liao... i dun really care....

k that was saturday.... sunday was CO concert... or enCOre... hahax... =p ... edwina finally realised why they called it enCOre... apparently the bold and capital CO letters were quite the obvious.. -_-'... hahahax.. and met danver with fang at tbp after tuition.... ate grillers.. the chicken cutlet i ordered for lunch was SO big that i din even eat dinner later... but that's for me to talk bout later.. =) ... went to comics connection .. and saw the MASTER GRADE freedom gundam.. i want!!!...hhahax.. bet it;'s over 200 bucks... bleah.. but i WILL get it... confirm... =X...

fang left.. coz he saw 195.. -_-'.. lol ... and danver went to order guinness stout... omg omg omg.. sucks la.. smelt terrible.. i rather drink my sapporo draft beer.. =) ... but coffeeshop dun haf... lol .... he drank until red.. hahax... VERI red.. and considering he's veri fair... the red look damn obvious la.. and i got drunk on teh bing.. -_-'... LOL... how come?... we stood in e mrt ... and i actually swayed around.. while danver din sway.. and he drank beer somemore la... zzz... and when i was trying to msg edwina.. i ended up msging him instead... hahhahax.. he got a shock coz he tot it was ***** that msged him... =X... hahahax..

we went to VCH.. but not b4 danver tried some ingenius ways to make himself look less red... -_-'... lol.. damn funnie la... we came earlier then edwina!.. hahax.. and danver made me change seats like twice.. we almost kena front row la...zzz.. stupid diq... and wina came and made us sit at e left side so can see jac... -_-'.. hahax... edwina has good taste!... chrysantanum white tea.. =) .. i also bought that drink in e morning after tuition!.. hahax.. din know it was new though... =p ..

the CO were good... reminded me of band.... but less impressive DUH.... -_-'... but the CO were good enough on their own terms.. even wina agreed with me... hahax... danver gave a flower to his classmate during e interval... and ____________________....... i wun type it here... private matters of other pple... but at least know something happened LOL>... -_-'... edwina gave jac chocs.. later she complain fat again... hahax... and later when we saw jac perform.. quite pro... =o .. lol ... but a bit rigid.. hahax.. and edwina!>. u also laughed k... dun poke me !!!........ haha...

after the concert... went to macs to study with danver... coz his father giving me lift home!>. woot!>.. hahahx.. so long nvr take pple's car liao.. like shang's father bringing us to go play soccer.. =) ... like a few months ago... okie.. diverting already.. lol .. losing concentration typing so much.... i drank green teaX2... -_-'.. too much hahax... coz din feel hungry.... and i think it's time to study biochem.. =) ..

gym today.. arms aching... edwina weighs _ _ kg... hahahhax... =X... should i type? hahax.. later she kill me... =) .. lol. ... but i can tell u i'm close to 80.. bleah.... so much for exercising.. -_-'...

u know.. finally this has been brought to a close... END.. FINISH.. -_-'
and boy am i glad for that.. this has been draggin on for too long.. and when i nvr do anything i finally get to see her thoughts on the matter.. FINALLY... -_-'... and if she wans to be loner then SO BE IT.. i had enough.... i can;t change her.. and if she doesn;t wanna change.. FINE BY ME... zzzzzzz.... i haf had better times... though i admit i do miss e old days.... zzzzz.... come danver.. lets go drink.. =) .. but i wan saporro draft beer ah..

to do or not to do...

o welllz... another highly anticipated post... NOT!!!... hahhax... i feel so contradictory today... -_-'.... ankle pain.. so dun wan go soccer... but ended up going to gym...... muz train up my arms liao... at least try.... sianz .... so i smsed danver to ask him if he wanna go... woke up late... lol.. and waited for 33 like half an hour!!!.. in e hot sun.!!!... =( ... lucky i nvr sweat much.... zzz.... and wenqing became my morning sms buddy!...hahax... i think 3 msgs?.. -_-'.. lol.. better then nothing.... no one was awake.. though i know one that would be at that time..but confirm she wun reply.. sooooooo... =X.....

found out danver also just woke up.. hahhax.. and he got stomachache....... we chionged the pull-up machine... and other stuff that used hands =) ... lol .... and i cycled!... lol .. the medium warmup not bad... i lost 21 calories... -_-'... according to e machine.. did for one hour of all these funnie exercises... and then went to watch sd5 play frisbee.. not bad.. i can throw but cannot catch... lol ... =X....

and after gym... decided to bring danver to acsi to eat.. but found out that now become 5-day week.. so cca is shifted to fridays...( most ) ... so they din haf food... sianz.. and it was PTM somemore..and for the less intellectual... it stands for parent-teacher meeting... =) .. so much food .. as danver said.. it was a international buffet.. but onli teachers allowed to eat.. and parents.. so u see 2 yellow ac shirt pple running about.. hahahax... trying to look for food.. XD.... met miss kuo siew lei.. ( er pardon me for e spelling.. i think it's wrong... LOL.. ) ... the pro chem teacher la.. and she could rmb me!!!>. =) .. said there weren;t many handsome boys in ac hahax... -_-'... then also met judy ho... my history teacher!... she asked me if i had a gf yet.. =X... i preferred not to answer e qn... lol.

then we met edwina!!... and ....***..... nvm.. u go find out yourself.. =) ... lol ... and i tot e cafe was open.. so i ran first to go check.. the uncle just closed... -_-'.. aiyo uncle!!!.. lol ... lucky i know most of e pple in ac like personally... coz most of us ac pple haf good pple to pple relations.. =p ... hahhax... then tot ITE foodcourt was open... then edwina and the rest of them and *** went to dover market... lol .. okie i think i wun use asterisks for her name anymore.. -_-'... i use secret code... hahhaax... then i jacked danver the 2nd time... and ITE foodcourt was closed also... lol ... and danver so sooooo hungry he was gonna faint.. but i felt kinda high... wonder why.. i felt kinda sad when she din say bye to me.. but onli wina did... sighz... though wina say bye i also felt happy.. but diff kind of happy la... bleah....

then went dover market also... but ate at some hawker centre.. coz danver wanted to eat some fried fish thingy... -_-'...lol.. then i ended up thinking wad to buy.. 3 reasons why.....
1st... i din wanna go into dover market.. coz the whole lot of them was sittting inside.. bleah.. so means i cannot order food from there...
2nd..i cannot pack food from e market to bring into e hawker centre coz they say no outside food.. bleah.. but it was due to e first reason that i din go inside.. sighz.. no guts to face her.... sianz...
3rd...they DIN haf mini pot noodle!! hahax... my fav noodles.. =)...
ended up ordering roti john.. which was 10 times better then ac's one, in terms of taste and looks... danver and wina can testify to this.. =p ... looked kinda small but was filling... YUM!..

i called edwina over when i saw her alone washing her hands.... and she came over to talk to me for a while... o wellz... glad i haf her as my gd fren.. =) ... o and she made me stare at my food for like 5 mins.. coz i had to hold her drink for her while she went to e washroom.. hahahhax.. =X,.... muz make her feel bad.... lol .... k la... =p... and i dunno if she actually did wad i told her to do..... hahax.. hope she did it in a tactful way... sianz... and i din say bye.. coz *** din look in my direction... .. i was like gonna fall off my seat watching her walk away.. danver knows this.. hahax.. he was like watching free comedy.. -_-'...

maybe it's me.. maybe it's her... wad's WRONG??.. sianz.... edwina says that she's just shy... but i think it's just she doesn;t want to talk... and when pple feel like that i can't do anything.. i only talk when pple are able to respond.... and when both of us meet it's a bad combination..... one dun wanna talk coz he thinks that she isn;t gonna respond.. and why?.. coz she gives the look of those that wun respond or respond with daft reponses...... looks like cannot ask her for NJ concert... haf CIP with danver on that day too... sianz.... and i dunno if i should ask her out since i know her june timetable is packed.... i really am at a loss of wad to do...
looking towards tomorrow has nvr been worse off.......

thnx to those who stayed and read till the end of this post... i really appreciate it... it may not be entertaining.. but it just reflects how i feel... =)...

hmmmz..

okie.. damn long nvr blog liao.... dunno why also.... hmmmz... i think it's becoz i got banned for playing com for 2 days... hahax.. coz played too much dota.. like 5 hours 2 days ago.. -_-'... lol.. so sianz....

reverting back to old school games like pokemon yellow..hahax.. but cannot play.. coz cannot save.. my stupid gameboy color is spoilt.. -_-'..zzzz.. o wellz.. at least it was quite fun beating brock again... lol.... i owned him with a nidoran =) ... double kick!... hahhaax.,..

sch is dumb... doing e same things over and over... -_-'.. so monotonous...but at least now i can control my sleepiness.. =) ... lol ...

played lan with ryan wong.. edwin.. and mathan... on tues.. LOL>. damn funnie l;a.. we played cs until can cry.. all e funnie stuff... XD... i knifed mathan to death.. lol .. and we p[layed some gay map that jump a bit wrong can die liao.. -_-'...

and i haf a new thing to irritate danver with!!!.. hahhax.. T.T DURAI!!!!.. hahahhahax.. =X.... lol... i sooo feel like calling her that again.. confirm she wun know i'm calling her that.. =) ... and watch as danver goes nuts... -_-'..

OMG.. i feel like slapping myself.. for i'm such a *&%^(&%(^(&%( ... zzzzz... i can;'t believe i had like 30 mins all alone with HER and i said NOTHING!!!!..... -_-'... lol ... my heart was beating damn fast though... hahax... sianz la.... and she avoided sitting nxt to me by waiting for others to pass first then sitting down.. sianz./.. when i wanted to talk to her... zzzz... lol... omfg... wtf...( WAH! THAT's FIERCE!!)
.... er... nvm... i'm going blur... i really like her.. and i dun think i'm gonna give up so easily.... but.... -_-'... bleah...

-_-'..zzz

okiexz.... lol... shang called me a pantat... -_-'... stupid shang... nvr ask me play dota liao.... learn my secret then dun play with me.. =( ... hahax..

today's a day off from sch!... =) ... coz of some funnie polling thingie.. dun ask me .. i also dunno and dun care... as long got holiday can liao.... hmmmz.... quite sianz at home ... kinda.. tried to do C.R.V tutorial.. but it looks so foreign to me... -_-'... onli managed to do one full qn and 2 half qns...hahax... the rest looks scary.. =X....

actually no mood to blog one.. but my stupid ares is rehashing all my files..... so it;s like gonna take half an hour.. which i haf to spend it... coz u cannot do anything to ares while it's rehashing...zzzz.. dunno why so jialat... i veri sianz.... wonder wad websites to visit... bleah....

hmmmz.. edwin's watching MI:3 with some girl at TBP!!!!.. hahahx.. too bad i too lazy to go check out which girl izzit... apparently she doesn;t know her way around here.. soooo i think muz be those bukit timah rich rich type one la.... lol.. edwin... going for MG girl sia.. =X..... or SC girl..

i love magnum almond!... i got 6 bars... but now left 5... =P.... cut my hair today.. feel so lost without my thick crown of hair... zzzzzzz.. well at least it's cooler around here...... some kind of consolation..... -_-'....wonder how my class will react tml,.. confirm edwina will go touch my hair one.. lol ... -_-'... doh......... especially........ =X....

hmmmz... now that i got quite some time on my hands... i can't help thinking about her...thinking bout wad happened.... thinking bout how things became like this.. thinking about the future... wad am i gonna do...... i think i think too much,... -_-'... but if i dun think then my mind is useless..... and zzzz it;s raining now.............. sunny yet rainy........ a exact replica of my current situation?.. maybe.... not sure... dunno... dun wanna know..... -_-'....

still haf like 20 mins more to go b4 my stupid ares can work...zzzz.... okie.. enough entertainment for u shang?.. -_-'... diq.... nothing to really blog about lor..... WTH!!.. rain is coming into my hse!!!.. -_-'... my com's nxt to e window!!.. 'zzzzzzzz..... lol.. tt was random... bleah.... u better tag u stupid shang.... lol... =X.. play with me dota!...

gundam!

hmmmz... lol.. i can't rmb wad happened these few days.. memory lapse.. and i dunno wad to type either.. =X.... sianz.... but at least i still haf my *troop* of loyal blog followers... =) ... hahhax...

THURSDAY-
i think nothing much happened today... i think the onli thing i can say is that SILENCE IS BROKEN!!... lol ... coz during pe today e girls were doing 2.4 km run... and the rest of us took the timing down for them... and i just went forward and told ******** that her timing was wad wad wad... and she actually replied with a question/remark sort of answer... cool.. and i replied again!!.. hahax.. it's been so long since i talked to her... and then i met her fren.... and i talked more with her fren then with her!!!.. -_-'... lol.. wad a failure i am.. o well.. =) ...

FRIDAY-
morning soccer match... supposed to wake up early but dunno why overslept..zzzz... and i reached there on time... and supposed to eat breakfast with xs at jurong point(jp)... but i so late he just ate without me... zzz.. then i went subway and bought myself a warm cold cut trio..zzz. lol.... and xs ate one cookie!!.. and narvin ate half of another one!!!!.zzz.. hhax... then we went to ntu field to play match... then i was left back.. -_-'...hmmmz.. so wanted to attack.. o wellz... then defended .. and cleared.. and it repeats... lol ... then richard was shouting as usual.. =) ... hahahax... if he dun shout means something wrong la.. lol... and i did one trick!!.. faked the striker lol.. and managed to get past him =p ... shiok.. we won 2-1... not bad.. comeback sia in 2nd half... =) ...

went marina after tt to eat YUKI & YAKI AGAIN~!!,., zzzzz stupid richard... and he screwed up e soup.. smelt damn sick... and i ate quite a bit too.... and we completed the funnie arcade game again!!.. =) .. and i bought another gundam model... the force impulse... =) ... die la.. no money.........and shang knows how to play drow ranger courtesy of me.. =) ...

SATURDAY0-
TODAY"S XS"S BIRTHDAY!!!!... lol ... went late to soccer again.. zzzz.z.. stupid me... coz yesterday nite too bz building my freedom gundam bought earlier with jasmin.. ryan.. and gupreet... =p .. on tues i think...played soccer.... scored onli 2 today..lol ... and one nice ram hit e post... bleah from half line leh... lol ... looks like i place too much liao.. placed like 4 shots today all hit post... -_-'...zzzz... then we bought a cake for xs and celebrated in e soccer court.. =) .. centre somemore.. hahax.. the small circle... and xs cannot cut a cake for his life.... -_-'.. lol... and soooo many pple owe me money!!!... hahax... o wellz.... but it was a nice cake though..went home.. and josh kept me from alighting at tiong bahru..zzzz... held on to my bag.... zzz... o wellz.. wasted 5 mins.. hahax.. and i had to swear in e mrt somemore.. -_-'... hahahax... quite dumb.. and BO LIAO!!!!..

THOUGHTS.. kinda random now.. dunno why am i typing in letter type format.. got headings somemore.. -_-'... lol... talking to her tt day felt quite nice.... and i wanna do it more... but only she wans.. i dunno how to approach her... bleah... =X... sianz la... why is this coming back to me now....................................................

Seasons...

<<>>
hahax.... wad a crappy sat.. raining when i woke up at 7.30 am.. -_-'.. immediately msged josh.. and he say cancel soccer liao.. so i spread e msg.. lol... then went to play com coz too early to do anything and i was already WIDE awake... lol ... zzz.. then smsed shang to tell him meet wad time at city hall mrt... hmmmz.. and supposed to be at 11.30am meet.. but i played dota until i met him at 12.30!!... hahahx... =p .. sorry la shang... then we walked around looking at gifts for his god-sis... cool... and say some funnie book for girls one.. quite nice... but 47.40!!!!..zz.. damn ex... lol.. and we went over to e humour section.. it;'s like a private thing with shang la.. we always go bookshop and see humour section coz some got really damn good jokes... lol.. can laugh until die.. and we found a book on bunny suicides... =) ... hahahax.. super funnie!!.. 15 bucks!!.. and i wanna buy !! =X... lol ... okiexz.. then we walked to suntec and back when we found out chee had arrived at city hall.. and we koped some dating agency service thing to give to both of them..and bryan actually wanted to call.. -_-'...


okiexz.. then we walked around at suntec again........ and we ate at some new eatery .. called "just noodles"... and it was dirt cheap and had free flow of coffee/peach tea/orange juice... and the food was realtively good.. and if i say relatively good means should be good for most pple.. =) ... lol ... prices starting from 4.80 onwards!!.. and the free flow rocks!.. i drank 4 cups!!.. =p ... and my bulgolgi beef set was nice.. and shang koped my chicken wing!!!!!... =@... lol ... then we went marina to play lan!!!.. and i played damn crap... anyhow play... zzz i actually died?... lol ... my luna sux.. maybe i should go practise.. =) ... and then richard came ..!!!>. lol.... hmmz...then we went to walk around a bit first.. and had some funnie encounters.. with a man kneading dough of the A1 curry puffs damn hiong.. and looked as though he was humping the counter.. i got e video!!.. =p ... i'll show u on my handphone!... lol..then we went to yuki and yaki to eat dinner... zz had to withdraw 30 from my acct... -_-'...


and fang and chee went back home.. -_-'... so onli me and richard and shang ate... lol ..then we did a lot of stupid crap... and ate quite a bit too... lol ... and richard was damn funnie la... kept trying to scare e pple looking through e window that were looking at us eating...




<--------this was wad we were supposed to eat... lol ...




..but we ended up eating... this----->








then when we ate until damn full.... richard decided that we had to dispose of our uneaten food.. and for a while we thought he was brillant.. to discard food into e tom yum soup pot.. but then..... a tiger nvr changes it's stripes sooooooo... LOL.... -_-'..
<----richard's moment of brillance..lol they can see the damn SUSHI inside RICHARD!!... lol!!!....then we paid and went off.. =) ..and we played arcade!!!.. lol.. we completed the some bushibushiking game,.. 30 levels total i think.. and we spent 3 bucks!!.. <------- we completed iT!!!!!. =) and i bought some pirated gundam model.. made in china one.. but it looked so real.. then it costs onli 3.90... coz got 20% discount.. =) .. lol.....
went home and dead beat....

then went back home and died..LOL.. spent my time fixing the model..while watching the elections results... =p ... looked good man... nice color.. din seem like a fake... pieces fitted together nice tooo... bet no one can tell e diff sia... and it cost onli 1/3 of the real one's price... the real one is 11.95.. =) .. mine = 3.90 .. LOL..!!.. =X....

ROCKS!!>..looks real right?.. and can morph into 2 forms.. so nice!!. =) ..gonna buy more sia,... ownage!!!.. =p .. hmmmz.. dun think i gonna blog bout today.... typed too much.. maybe tml.. =p .. and stupid bryan.. i wanna play with u and melvyn dota...zzzz.. <>

dotxz... -_-'..

WA LAO.. i wake up early morning to find out it's raining.. and heavily at that somemore.. -_-'... zzz.. and most unexpectedly.. bryan wanted to play today.. hahhax.. but got cancelled.. so i'm stuck now in e early morning.... cannot sleep... cannot do any stupid thing.. so blog lor.. =p ... wah. sianz until the max sia,.... NOTHING TO DO!!!.. AND TOO EARLY TO STUDY!!... zzzzzz... -_-'.... and heres a song that i used to listen to during my "recovery days"... lol ..

STREETLIGHT MANIFESTO LYRICS


"The Saddest Song"



it doesn't really matter if you lead or follow

everybody's laughing like there's no tomorrow and even if there was,

would you still go following your friends?

i don't know where we went wrong, we're still singing those same sad songs

"it's my life, not your life, i'll end it when i want"



and now i'm off to save the world once again

but i don't know how i'll pull it off this time

i think i'm going to drown

now he's off to save the world once again

but he don't know how he'll pull it off this time

i just know i'm going to drown



and it's the saddest song you'll ever hear

the most pain you will ever feel

but you grit your teeth because it don't get better than this (know this)

and you'll try to explain as the blood leaves all your veins

and you can't think of anything that you would change



stop!

"look and you will see" is what i think she said to me

i'm not too sure because it could have easily been a million things

but i don't know what she said

i still don't know what she said

years passed since i've seen her face, 14 years were just erased

if my life was your life, would you ever take it back?



and now i'm off to save the world once again

but i don't know how i'll pull it off this time

i think i'm going to drown

now he's off to save the world once again

but he don't know how he'll pull it off this time

i just know i'm going to drown



yeah you will try to explain as the blood leaves all your veins

and you can't think of anything that you would change



and now i'm off to save the world once again

but i don't know how i'll pull it off this time

i think i'm going to drown

now he's off to save the world once again

but he don't know how he'll pull it off this time

i just know i'm going to drown



and it's the saddest song you'll ever hear

the most pain you will ever feel

but you grit your teeth because it don't get better than this (know this)

and you'll try to explain as the blood leaves all your veins

and you can't think of anything that you would change

always always u..

lol.. i damn slack to blog nowadays sia... -_-'... hmmmz.. my mood la... cannot blame anything else.. actually can... lol.. =p ... and xs is making my fingers ache.. sms like siao.. hahax.. today quite fun.. i was FREAKING high in e morning... kept disturbing j.c... LOL.. =x... and i finally found out the truth from him!!!!.. yay!!!.. =) ... ownage... lol.. o yar i forgot...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUILING!!!.. though it's kinda late but... NVM la... =) ... lol ...

hmmmz... okiez... danver and me kept suaning each other during bio lec?.. hahahx... damn funnie la.. i acted like ***** and made him feel like dying... =p ... LOL.. damn fun la.. and he suaned... ********... -_-'... stupid diq.. but at least it was fun.. =) ,... and ryan wong ah.. i tried wad mathan always does to me.. go brush against the leg the inside part there... and ryan wong was gonna kill me.. hahahax... =X.. and speaking of mathan.. lol .. nvr come sch... got bad stomachache.. coz go white sands eat nasi pandang the gravy i think the milk spoil or something... -_-'... lol ... diq....

and did napfa today.. and i ate my least today.. not bad i can survive.. =)... eat so little .. lol .. raisin loaf not bad leh.. and deborah asked me if i was alright.. coz she see me eat bread.. lol .. and asked if i was dieting.. -_-'... lol.. maybe i should.. but i tried b4.. no use.. =X... lol .... and napfa damn funnie.. i run shuttle until my soles came out.. zzz.. stupid shoe so long nvr wear,.. 5 years leh...zzz.. then i failed 2.4 by 1 sec.. coz i din push myself... but the teacher many nice.. said the 1 sec was due to reaction time.. and let me PASS!!! hahahax... yay!!!.. =) .. i love that guy man.. lol ..

hmmmz.. long time since i felt a twinge in my heart... been looking at her all day... kinda.. lol .. also not sure when i look at her.. but definitely got look.. -_-'... hmmmz... sometimes got eye contact... but i nvr say anything.. i feel as though i haf nothing to say... really nothing to say.. like mental block... sighz... dunno la.. i also not sure if she's looking at me also... soooooo.. unsure... wanted to ask her out for tml.. some Hwa Chong concert... but i think she;ll be too tired after cca.. confirm reject.. so nvr ask lor.. -_-'... o wellz.... danver looks so happy.. lol .. kinda.. =X... at least he TALKS to her... i dunno wad's happening to me... -_-'.. zzzz
do i still like her?.. that's wad i;ve been asking myself.. and YES i still do... but i dunno wad to do... i'm kinda lost now..................

wa ,,,

OMG OMG OMG........... THE VIDEO FOR THAT SONG IS SOOOO NICE.. =( ... lol ... hahhax... just downloaded it..!!!.. omg omg omg.. hahax... damn nice la.. muz show danver soon... it's soooo like my situation now!!!... -_-'... lol .. i'm kinda siao now.. =p.. hahax.. i think i'm turning high again.. and it's no good for those around me.... * looks around * .. lol .. k la.. wad a random post.. -_-'.. bleah..

you had a bad day..

hmmz.. woke up quite early today... and my team is a team full of diqs.. hahhaax.. =p .. how come?.. coz all 3 of us were in e same train and we din know.. yet we were msging each other like free... -_-'.. until like eunos then we realised that and we met together in e train... LOL... shang was in e front.. i was in e mid.. and xs was at e back.. hahax... all 3 sections of e train.. =) ..we rock la.. joker sia.. and i got 30 yrs of bad luck... coz 10 from shang.. 10 from xs.. and 10 from myself.. =X... hahax.....

went to play joga.. sort of.. and we played against marwin's team??.. wt... zzz... and xs is damn funnie la.. all kinds of funnie things...-_-'.. lol.. so played 3 games.. won one last 2... and won one coz i din know that the match we were gonna kelong.. but at least i still oled... LOL.. and score somemore sia.. damn funnie... =X.. hmmmz.. overall verdict.. fun but HOT... the sun was siao la.... can die.. bleah tml sure burn one... -_-'...

hmmmz... raining... and feeling so sleeeeeppy.. -_-'... lol... but eat dinner liao full of energy... lol.. and shang is finally saved from his accts work.. hahax... =p...

sch again tml.. hmmz.. wonder how it;'s gonna be like,... o yar.. forgot to type.. i bought a new hp pouch!!.. and it;s damn CHIO!!!.. =) ... super nice la.. fits my phone perfectly... fell in love with it at first sight la... * if it could work with living things..* ... lol... =X... 5 bucks onli.. =)

hmmz.. this song is stuck in mine and fang;'s head.. -_-'.. rawkz.. hahax..
DANIEL POWTER LYRICS

"Bad Day"



Where is the moment we needed the most

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

They tell me your blue skies fade to grey

They tell me your passion's gone away

And I don't need no carryin' on



You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee to go

You tell me your life's been way off line

You're falling to pieces everytime

And I don't need no carryin' on



Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

You had a bad day



Well you need a blue sky holiday

The point is they laugh at what you say

And I don't need no carryin' on



You had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day



(Oh.. Holiday..)



Sometimes the system goes on the blink

And the whole thing turns out wrong

You might not make it back and you know

That you could be well oh that strong

And I'm not wrong



So where is the passion when you need it the most

Oh you and I

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost



Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

You've seen what you like

And how does it feel for one more time

You had a bad day

You had a bad day



Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

find a way..

lol... so we'll find a way.... -_-'... hmmmz.. woke up at 8 today!!.. omg... so early...!!..zzz.. had nothing to do..* in this particular order*.. so brushed teeth.. unplugged my zen from charging.. turned on my phone... ate noodles while reading newspaper.. lol.. then packed my bag for tuition and then played pokemaul ruby as i still had one hour to spare.. and it was too early to study.. -_-'.. like duh.. hahax... not bad i pokemaul top kills... =p.. though i'm noob in it..

went to tuition.. and guess who called me>?>?... ryan gomes!!!.. hahahax... he was damn funnie la... asked me tbp where got the ramen shop..lol.. i couldn't visualize him at tbp... -_-'.. and he called me druing tuition!!!... zzz... and i got shocked when some girl sat nxt to me.. last week also sat nxt to me.. hmmmz.. lol.. nah i heck care.. =p ... i think bryan more interested,... =X.... and as usual.. tuition was as slack... and nxt week got relief teacher again.. and guess who i met?... serene!!.. hahax... and her fren also from sd3... cool... =p... hahax... and fang said my shirt looked like from F.O.S one leh.. yay!... finally one shirt he say nice.. but i dun care la,.,. lol.. and foo suaned me with my shirt,.. called me a bad girl.. -_-'.. he die la..

hmmz.. walked around orchard.. and spent 6.50 on wanton noodles!!!.. but is resturant type one and DAMN nice... =) ... worth it sia.. 5 wantons full of prawns and is damn big la... hahax... =p ... and had nice char siew too.. hahax... at e stupid food republic there... I wan new pencil case.. new bag..... hmmz.. dunno wad else liao.. lol ...

aiyo... now jac also knows my blog.. lol .. wanted to keep it secretive.. =X... lol... i too lazy to tag.. sooo... yes huiling.. i know u like ice cream.. i just ate like 3 coconut potong ice creams -_-'.. and i'm coughing .. hahax...

hmmmz... fun fun fun... legs hurt... dunno how to play soccer tml.. -_-'.. bleah... should i ask for nxt sat?... dunno la... i feel kinda sianz.... and i think i haf better choices... hahahax... stupid bryan.. psycho me until liddat... o wellz.. We'll Find A Way.. =) ..

Still Listening To ... *Find The Way* by Mika Nakashima...

funbox!!..

hahax... hmmz.. nvr blog for quite long,... kinda lazy to blog already... and it;s either too much happening to blog down or too little that happened so i dun bother,. but finally there's something to 'type down........ -_-'... lol

k.. on fri... which means yesterday.... we had half e day of partying.. coz we were having a farewell party for charlie chan... he was so touched by our gestures... and some bitch decided that my stuff was rubbish and decided to avoid it... my vanilla cream puffs were a hit lor.. not as good as lynette's lasagna... but good enough for a dessert....(p.s they din get forced to eat it unlike some other thing...) at least i made my contribution.. not like some pple who just tag along with others to get something done and claim all e credit for it... stupid bitch... kkz.. enough of scolding... then edwina's beehoon also many nice.. =) ... but she made too much.. =X.... hahax... and xm and his fishballs and popiah.. =) .. and i forgot who made e taiwan sausages though.. but still nice.. =) ... and the card!!.. hahax.. i think i wrote too little.. -_-'... and jasmin damn funnie la... draw a new organic compound called charmon.. lol.. sounds like a pokemon.. =X.... hahax.... looks quite cute la... and xs kept msging me,......... lol ... so i was msging throughout,... -_-'... stupid xs...

no mood to study for e rest of e day.. so just talked cock with mathan.. -_-'.. and danver too..!!!.. lol... then got weiqiang join us and we waited for e movie screening to start.... in e viewing gallery coz it was raining like siao... and the basketball court damn wet... o yar.. forgot.. had pe there too.. basketball.. -_-'.. i tell u.. i play it so comical i was laughing at myself... lol.. i even lost to alodie in scoring... hahhax.. o wellz... wad can u expect from one tt doesn;t use hands much... =p ...

the movie was dreamship surprise.. and it was DAMN funnie.. can die la.. but it's those type of movies that u watch one time then funnie.. watch again no kick liao.. hahax.. but it was still good... not bad la.. then me and mathan laugh like siao.. coz we always knew wad they were implying.. the hidden meanings la... damn funnie sia.. and i too lazy to type out e details.. =p ..

got my new phone!!!.. =) .. need i say more?.. hahax

hmmz.. nvr felt so emo in a while... dunno why la.. sianz... i think i should just give up.. no point... pushing.... stupid.. hate it.. -_-'... and the stupid ending theme 3 of gundam seed is gonna make me cry anytime soon.. so nice.. =( ...

*Find The Way* by Mika Nakashima..

-_-'...

okiexz... blogger is damn screwed up.. i mite go change blog liao.. go use livejournal.. lol .. =X.// taking ages to load.... and after i typed yesterday the stupid thing hanged on me... so yesterdays post din appear..... hmmz.. but it was basically like.. charlie's leaving!... -_-'... and it's damn sad..... zzzz... and i;m not gonna type how i felt yesterday again.. waste time..and my energy... bleah.... but all i can say.. is... that.. i'm so gonna miss him la.... his energetic teachings... and his extremely fast pace of teaching chem.. hahax.. =( .... i think that these deep feelings haf like developed over the last year... and even more this year.... sighz.... all we can do is just wish his wife recovers.... and that he will be back to e old charlie again... * there's something bout tears which i wun write again.. kinda heart breaking.. *

okiexz.. for today.... came to sch cold.. -_-'... and huiling needed help with NMR.. i nearly died.. ahhax.... cannot count in e morning.. at least my theories still was correct.. then thinking bout chem reminded me of charlie.... sighz.. and he din come today.... =( ... really miss him... our big teddy bear..... =X.... a smart one though... hhax... slept in lib.. with mathan... lol.. =p ... sounds kinda wrong but wadever... -_-'... and we woke up just on e dot.. 12.30... hahahx... =p ... reading biochem booklet really does make u sleepy... lol ...

i want my new phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... -_-'... lol .. i'm making such a fuss over it.......yay.. gundam seed again later!.. though i think i watched today's episode b4 liao.. but anyway.. still nice .. =)...

i think no other teacher can take e place of charlie chan in my heart... why?.. he's the onli teacher who's had a significant impact on me... a certain dislike became a like... at first i really din agree with his methods... and i felt i would fail chem.. but now my chem is picking up... and i think i haf more confidence in this sub now..... thnx to him...and to see him haf tears well up in his eyes... and seeing my classmates cry... is disheartening.... but becoz of his faith in us... i WILL do my best... and hope i get an A and show it to him.... then maybe.. maybe.. i mite cry with him.. when i get back my A's.....

I'll miss u sir...

hahahax.... back to sch once again!!... -_-'.. how come i so happy... maybe it's becoz i'm back to being me!!... and though it comes with e added perks of being reckless... free... and comical.... it has the drawbacks of being a bit introvert... zzz... o well... i'm quite liddat already so i dun think it matters much.... hmmmz... b4 lunch my stomach hurt.. coz hungry... then charlie chan dropped a bombshell on us.. though not exactly a bombshell... but it was still hard to bear....... it seems like he got domestic problems... and he's got a lot of probs on his hands... and yet he's still worried bout us... i'm really touched by his gestures...... it seems like he will be gone for a long time... and another teacher is g0nna take over him.. but i wan charlie...!!!.. =X... sighz... lynette and jasmin cried nxt to me when charlie announced that./... and though charlie wasn't crying..i could see tears welled up in his eyes.... bleah... i felt sad... but i dunno why i din cry.. as lynette said.. guys dun easily show their emotions... well.. quite true... but... guys will show emotions to other guys.... -_-'... sighz.. let's wish charlie's wife a speedy recovery....